A New Lesson Learned

I am having a real moment of clarity in my personal life and I would like to share, even at the threat of offending some readers. I have had a most unexpected opportunity (fired for no discernible reason after 5 years of employment) to be home the last 2 months. I have always said that God allows bad things to come into our lives for 2 reasons:

1. He is bragging on us (see:Job!)
or
2. He wants our attention!

I feel strongly that He wasn't bragging on me. I had spent very little time in fellowship with him over the last few years. Between work (60-70 hrs/wk) and life I hadn't given God much time or thought. Which is stunning when you consider I was, at one time, seriously pursuing my Pastoral license! I was enrolled in an online Bible College and getting after it. But one of my greatest weaknesses, when it comes to me faith, has been trusting God to know the best path and be my strength when I face hardships. I've always tried to figure out my own solutions while ignoring the God that created ALL the universe. But this time I had a sense of peace about the situation. I knew God had a plan. And for whatever reason I trusted fully He would supply my needs.

He has shown Himself to be all He was advertised to be: My Provider, My Comforter, My Rock, My Refuge, and My Healer. God seems to be pounding into my soul that this year will be the year of reconciliation. God is reconciling the lost, He is reconciling broken relationships with family, and reconstructing His peoples understanding of Him. I don't know what path the Lord will lead us down, though I know the path we are on now has been clearly shown to us. But I do know my God is able to guide us through any thing this life may bring our way. And I sincerely hope that any and every one will have the opportunity to really know what I just figured out 26 years after I began my journey with Christ. And though I am sure I will fall on my face, I'm a bit clumsy with my walk, I know now what I did not fully know 2 months ago and that is that God loves me and wants my attention. He has my full attention and trust.

CCB
Rejoice in your troubles, for you are not alone!

Stop The World I Want To Get Off!

What is going on with the world today? It's bad enough our politicians are stealing our future, and our CHILDREN'S futures, but now lunatics are running the streets shooting people for no apparent reason! You have a Pastor shot in his on church, a psycho goes nuts in Alabama, and then not to be left out Germany has it's own street "smack down"! Is it just me our has the world lost whatever was left of it's sanity?

When are we colonizing Mars? I'm booking now!

CCB
I've put my trust in the only One that can save us all!

Is That A Katana In Your Pocket Or Are You Just Happy To See Me?

Okay, some of you don't care, much, or more accurately "at all", but I love Marvel Comics. I know, not in the dress up and go to "conventions" with the Dork Patrol kind of love(if that's you I of course mean those dorks and not you dorks!). But I do like them, they are a slice of what makes people human. They are delusional, self loathing, insecure, neurotic, you name it! They run the gamut. I mean (of course I know they are fictional! Quit yelling loser at me!) they have these amazing powers and yet they still deal with paralyzing fears and phobias and a warped world view! Yeah, exactly, they are US! Which makes you feel so much better about yourself. I mean Spiderman? Hello! Issues, much? And don't get me started on Dr. Pym the wife beating narcissus!

Anyway, where I was going before the train derailed back there, is Marvel movies. I love them... X-Men, Fantastic 4 (I know they strayed a little on some plot lines...PLEASE STOP YELLING! I am not a Dork!) Hate them ... First Punisher, Daredevil really, Afflac! (picture a squawking duck, people!). I really wish they would at least pretend sometimes that they read the comics before they make the movies! Or pick the actors playing them better. And I hate when they stray too far from the real characters. I mean seriously, The Punisher (#1) was a good action flick, but not The Punisher. It seems the new version The Punisher (#2) might be on the mark with his psychosis and deep seeded death wish! I mean The Punisher wants to die! He purposely goes into places he should not, and kills a butt-load of baddies, hoping someday he's too slow so he can join his wife and kid in the next life. Period!

It is cool though that so many of my childhood heroes are making it to the big screen. And it would appear more are coming with Weapon X (please, please, please have Deadpool in it! He's crazy), Aqua Man, and The Green Lantern coming out. I just hope they try to stay true to the characters that are so flawed, and twisted because that's what made them Icons, not Hollywood hunks and hotties running around in spandex, okay that does distract (Mystique, Electra, Mrs. Fantastic) from the misguided plot lines.......Okay that is it, I don't have to listen to you people judging me! I'm going to bed!

CCB
Let him without dorkness strike me with their light sabre, or Phazer, whatever!

Okay, I was only kidding about the Apocalypse!

Now I know that most people don't read the synopsis on a blog page, but I felt a little creeped out yesterday by mine and the whole Apocalypse thing when I heard what had happened on Monday. It would appear that we (the big beautiful planet we live on) were almost given a "kiss of death" by an asteroid the size of a ten story building! It was ONLY 45,000 miles from us people! Do you get that? That is CLOSER then the moon!!! They said it would be the equivalent of 1,000 bombs that leveled Hiroshima going off at once. Ummm, I am no scientist or anything but I'm pretty sure that is real bad. Not like "Ishtar" the movie bad, more like your eyes being melted out of their sockets and your flesh peeled away bad. I just hope it's name wasn't Wormwood or Galacticus! If it was I am moving to Mars.

I was recently bit by the unemployment bug, seems people don't like it when you increase sales, lower inventory levels, and improve store conditions. Who knew that was a bad thing?? Not that I'm bitter, because I'm not. That job sucked the soul from my chest at every occasion, and I saw little of my family. The reason that I mention it is because I am appalled by unemployment. How is that you can apply for unemployment and have them NOT pay you for 6 weeks? I was fired! I went to your "Career Center", I've applied @ 31 places in six weeks (or 5 per week. I'm required to apply at 1, don't get me started on that little gem!), and still nothing? Just letters saying "there is a question about your termination or availability"? Huh, what? What if God had not blessed us financially, like He has, we would be in DEEP DOO-DOO! How can our systems of help be sooooo poor at really helping? Don't get me wrong, $250+ a week does not pay my bills, but it would help a little. I think the problem is that so many people abuse this assistance, so that when people who really need it don't get it because it is tied up and slowed down by RETARDS who don't want to work, and want a hand out.

Back to the applying @ 1 job thing: Why only one job? Maryland required minimum 3! One app a week is someone NOT looking for a job! "Uh, yeah I applied at JP Morgan as a branch manager. What, no I have no experience with banking. I've only flipped burgers, but I was looking to diversify my resume!" "That's great, at least you tried! Here's your money, now go buy your beer and cigarettes you crazy fool you!"

I'm sorry this was a little all over! But again, this is CCB and you will get rants damn it! And you will like it! Now go eat your greens and clean your room! Don't give me that look! I ought to.....


CCB
When you are in the dark, look to the Light!

The Decline of Western Civilization!

Now I know what your thinking, why is CCB so negative all of a sudden about the state of America? Well little ones it's because CCB is scared by how far removed we as Americans have allowed ourselves to be removed from the men and women that make policy and spend our tax money. We are oblivious to how (both parties!) they use our tax money to fund outrigger canoe trips in Hawaii, or build museums, or build a train system from L.A. to Las Vegas. Why is it the 61% of the Democrats and 39% of the Republicans are "special interesting" (code for Ear Marks or Pork Spending, sounds so pretty, huh?) our tax money to better themselves at the expense of the rest of us. I don't live in Hawaii or Nevada! Why aren't we using some sense and putting the money into banking reforms, or upgrading failing manufacturing business, or protecting us from another terrorist attack?

Have we forgotten that people flew planes into buildings? And they want to blow us up still? Did you know that terror cells (with Middle Eastern Terrorist) are operating in America right now? Why are they here? Because we are a "kinder, gentler" nation that is more concerned about world opinion, which I understand the need for, but not at the expense of Americans being killed in mass by a group of psychopathic criminals! This is America. We are suppose to be the best and the brightest. We are suppose to look at the mistakes of our past failures and LEARN from them, chose a new path and WIN! Yet, we keep going round and round the same merry-go-round of stupidity.

I for one am tired of the lies our Government tells us. "There are no ear marks in this bill blah, blah, blah"! LIARS! All of you are liars, and I hope Americans will stand up for ourselves in the next round of elections and tell ALL (Republicans & Democrats) the people that are stealing our children's financial futures with "special interest" spending, thanks for your thievery, NO JOB FOR YOU!

This has been a rant by CCB, and I feel better!

CCB
Look around you and enjoy God's blessings.

Okay, I'm Sure I'm Alone On This....

I am completely sick of Politics in America! Why do I have to listen to them all say so little for so long. It's like watching a one-liner show. The sad thing is that the country is so oblivious to this. They eat it up! "Yeah, he really knows how to say things that make me stand up and cheer." Oh, what were you going to do to fix this mess again? I don't think I caught that part.... We just look at our chosen party line and "go with it". I keep praying for a strong, realistic independent candidate to drop on the scene with great ideas, that aren't along any one party line. That actually have a plan for fixing things, not just "patches" and "quick fixes". And certainly not with spending MY hard earned money to push a political agenda (Bush did it and so is Obama!). We need serious political reform. Reforms were lobbyist don't write policy, and special interest can't act like we all want Ashrams in Oregon for Retarded Squirrels! And get some Hollywood A-Lister to stand on TV wearing a T with a drooling tree rat on it, saying "This is really important to America." And we all fall in line, "Duh, she sure was pretty in her T. If she thinks Retarded squirrels matter, then so do I!"

And when did the media lose its integrity? Fair and balanced use to be the norm, now fair and balanced is code for we run 1 apposing view per 20 for stories! I know the Dems are up in arms about talk radio being slanted, but be fair the Media is totally Democratic (Fox excluded) it's called Karma, Ying (Media) Yang (Talk Radio). There is not a single person who can tell me otherwise with a straight face! It makes me sad that the BBC has better balanced, unslanted news about our country! God help us all!

Oh, side note: Titus (comedian) did a hillarious stand up on racial issues in America. I'm Whitey, and I apologize!

I'm moving to Canada. I started applying last night.......


CCB
The only way to make change to our world, is to start with yourself

To My Birthday Boy!

I look at you and see myself in striking blue eyes
When I was young and life less hard, less cluttered
Living life one burst of energy at a time
Real joy, real sadness, real love, disappointment
Each day a new challenge to be the center of the world
Impish smiles melting mother's heart like wax
Amidst snuggles, sweet kisses and marriage proposals
My hope is you find in the years to come, unseen
The joy and love, outweigh the sadness and disappointment
That proposals lead to a life filled with wonder and discovery
And you, too, look upon your child with wonder and amazement


I love you Boy, even if you are my weakness!

CCB
No one is ever unloved!

Happy V.D., Baby!

In valleys of cascading light
Greens and blues blending as one
Breezes blow springs warm delight
Flowers straining to touch the sun
Naked feet dance on meadows green
While laughter sets your cheeks a glow
Head swirling with joy, as in a dream
My heart leaps, I am in Love's throws
An angel in flight would pale to compare
Nor any one in my eyes be as fair
I know in your arms I will grow old
In the greatest love story ever told


Love you Baby!

CCB!
Love like there is no tomorrow!